What is love?

When it comes down to it all, then what is love?
Some say it is feeling, an emotion, but what are feelings and emotions? What is it created by, and why do we loose ourselves to follow it anyway?
Personally, I really wish that it was something you could just throw it away?
And if we really think we find love? then when it goes wrong, because it will, then what makes us believe again, what is it there is left?
Do we deserve love? and further, if we do something wrong, then will we ever really deserve it?
If you never really had love, it it then because you did not deserve it? or belive it?
And if we deserve it, then will it appear?
If it always seem hard to find then, are we ready, do we deserve to be loved?
And if we do not belive it, do we then not deserve?
- is the thoughts in our head the ones that decide if we must live forever with out the love that we might deserve, or not deserve?
If the emotion, the feeling is a chemical, as the wise say, that gets in to our blood, adrenalin, then is anything of what we feel ever true, or do we fool ourselves with something that will never be reality.
If you never had true love,
will you ever get it after a great deal of years?

Will I, will you?


I guess I'm filled with thougghts right now >.<

In the middle of the night!

Well well!
I just got this weird -undefined- urge to blog. That's just completly insane, now isn't it, thinking of my drive in blogging O-o;.
Anyway, to be honest I don't really have that much on my mind, or I don't think so o_O,
- Right now I have been told to think of what I want to do.
I have for a while been working as a concrete worker in Copenhagen, to earn money - but also having the advantage of being in the -socalled- 'capital' of freaking Denmark. In some way that have been funny being around nice people -whenIhadthefreakingtime- but the work is just dreadful and so uninspiering as nothing alike.
or I must find a job, here in Jutland, in the middle of -freaking- nowhere.
I somehow turn towards Copenhagen, but still it was kinda stressing.

No-then. what else? xD
I've got myself a new Youtube account, where I post *cough*cough* myself talking of -likefreaking- nothing really. I gúess alot of people do that so why not me to? xD
You have to dig it, cause I tell you to! *demands*
- Youtube.com/ShikixLeBroche

Right now I like stoned, in my bed with my computer on my knees, watching "DR-UDLAND" (DR-abroad). Telling stories about terrible conditions on Turkey's children's home, and Chinese people devoloping fatness-epidemic alike the western, because the economic growth. That's just sad.

Anyways. Im tired. You might understand, *points to the time*

BAIBAI! おやすみなさい！　￥。￥

Give me a Headache! O_o;

I have a damn headache right now.
I have had it all day! O_o; DARN IT!
- today we had this family dinner thing. The food was good, but aaaaaall the woooooork! Darn it!
I cleaned the bathroom, the livingroom, the dining room AND the kitchen.
AAAAAAAND I made a part of the food and arranged it, aaaaaaaaand I put up the table!
- I haaaaave to absolutly get something for this shit seriously! thats the way it is!
DO IT - moneymoneymoney! NOW! darn!
well I will go to bed now I am so darn tired! I was up already at 6:00! T_T;

HAVE FUN!
<3 shiki-lebroche.net

oh dear

Omg, I just found out my parents are having family dinner tomorrow to celebrate that I have graduated. I dont want anything for that shit, I did it so poorly that I'm rather ashamed. Buisness college stink. It's so dumb. Sorry for the negativity! xD daaaaaaarn xD
-RESCUE ME! xD
I wanna watch jack ass now - just cause its sill'iere than me T_T; xD ah

Make me

SCREAM

Okay blogger is seriously giving me the GREAT itch! I tried to change the template, and I found this enormously cute layout with Yapi, which I had decided I definetly wanted to use cause it was just amazing! and then it gives errors "BLABLA XML CLOSE FUCK TAGS IMG BLABLA CLOSE" - I have no clue what it means with the whole XML cause I havn't ever used the damn thing, so how would I have a clue? and personally I KNOW that you fucking can't make a freaking tag! there are just NO such thing! thats just the freaking way it is!

Erhem, anyhow - new subject. Wuuh! YAY me! I have got a new hair dying - done by my faboules lady - Mylady <3 - Ich wub you <3 and I have got a new piercing aswell (in the eyebrow) - now my mom has gone totally mental being veeeeeeery certain that I definatly haaaaave to move out this time. Thats acually quite okay with me - Myladys parents have offered me a temperary home at their place *sends love* That is so absolutly sweet! - acually it ain't the first time they have made the offer, but I think this time I will take them up at the word x'D I seriously need to get away from home a while O-o;

Also: today I have put up a new layout at my website TAKE A LOOK: SHIKI-LEBROCHE.net so if you ask me, it's very nice - it's version 2o.o featuring Miyavi. Who don't like mivster? - oh wait -acually some people very harshly hate him.. darn.. poor... them! x'D I looooove him <3

Also today I have danced around - ah not really dancing, but I have been singing - I have seriously fallen in love with Rihannas song "take a bow" its seriously so - nice! You go girl!

Darn - well right now Im listening to som Dir en grey ara VULGAR <3 That's just always so good! xD *snatches dir en grey and rapes* muahah Oh yea!

Chek out my DeviantART -> shikipearllebroche.deviantART.com




じゃね！

Longtime

Long time... no see? xD true that true that!
Anyways, lots have happened - some good and some, quite terrible.

Good?
I don't really remember right now, but there sure are some!
Guess that will be all the stuff I have been buying, tho now I have no money at all xD
- and I've got at fabules new hair cut. Yuu-ki Divina did it, my personal hair dresser (lolz tho she truly aren't a hair dresser but nobody knows *ninja*)
OH! and Yes! I went with Mylady aka Nan to Italy- okay its acually a long time ago now but it was fun! xD <33 I miss mylady ~____~"

Bad?
Well, worst case scenario came true. I've gotten ill.
Yeah yeah, people would say, but not just "ill" its a freaking no end disease and it never ends and no medicin = death. omg.
And yea, okay, its Diabetes 1, and it dosent sound that bad, but I used to be a sugar addict - ups still are - and I can't have candy. AND if it just was the candy that would be okay, but NO! its even food like potatoes, rice, pasta and white bread. everything seem to be a killing, ticking time bomb. Damn it!
And how did I manage to get it? Dun know? Not even the doctors know for sure.
They say that stress can make the immune defence go crazy and kill the wrong cells if you have a weakness for it. I guess I had such a weakness. *throws stuff around*
and you might think "Which kinda stress can be that bad?"
well'.
School. you wouldnt think it was that bad, ne? but if you dont have a clue what to do then it starts being stressing!
And my newyears evening wasnt that gracious either, I ended making some real bad shit for myself, damn it, and I still go around with a half dirty conscience, since my friend (who it seems to be worst for) dosent know the half of the events of the "evening"
Makes me want to cry even o-o;

Im in school right now, and we are soon going to get our grades, I don't really hear but I guess I have to. *crycry* hahha

Baibai!